KENAPA AKU STRESS?

I'm really looking forward for this public holiday. It's not because I'm celebrating the Wesak Day, not even close. I just need some rest. My workload has never been this cruel to me. And WLady a.k.a. Nina is laughing at me out loud because she's currently having a long rest heheheheh...

I get grumpy when stressed and I believe everybody is. It feels like this blood vein in my forehead is just waiting to explode. Sometimes it really hurts when I feel dizzy because of the pain coming from the back of my neck towards my front skull. Uuu... ngeri sungguh bunyinya... suara ngeri... datang dari lembah sunyi... (cuba teka lagu apa?).

Aku juga benci kepada orang yang memperlekehkan urgency kerja aku kerana kepentingan diri mereka sendiri. Bertanggung jawablah sikit... Aku sebenarnya suka mendoakan dalam hati bahawa perbuatan mereka pasti akan terbalas oleh Tuhan dan bila itu berlaku, aku cuma perlu seeeenyum aje. Kalau tak tahan, aku gelak lah. It's a karma thing.

As Najwa Aiman once said to me, our road is one of the biggest factor to high blood disease. I couldnt agree more with him. It really is true. Sometimes the "sabar" is there but it get lost when the stupidity is really intolerable. Shouting my lungs out is my best solution yet. Kengkadang, aku buat tak tau je... malas nak focus dan membazir tenaga aku memikirkan kebodohan mereka itu. Marah pun pakai tenaga ape?

I'm actually really afraid of this stress thing. Having to know how we could be affected of it, lagi lah aku risau. Currently, I'm like having this bulks of things to be done and it's kinda blobbing in my head. Lots of things. Kusut betul. Sebab itulah aku rimas bila benda yang kecil dan bodoh dan tidak memberi kesan kepada hidup aku diisukan dan mengheret aku ke dalam perbincangan yang tidak perlu. There are bigger things happening in my head. I sound really stress kan? Hehehe...

I will have some fun this weekend. What is my kind of fun? Hmm... Sleeping long hours is fun to me, lazing around at mamak stall is fun to me, reading all day is fun to me, window shopping is fun to me but the truth is, i dont really have any specific definition in fun. Even disturbing my mom in the kitchen while she's busy cooking is also fun to me.
Naahh... I'll find my fun.